So it's been over 1 month now since our adoption fell through and we are doing well. I found myself holding out hope that his mother might change her mind. It's difficult to think about him being homeless and not having the necessities he needs. But I try not to let myself think about it too often, I know that God is taking care of him, as well as me. I know that there is a baby waiting for our love, we cannot wait to know who it is! Recently 2 people close to me have dreamt that I had a baby girl with brown curly hair, hmmm, it makes me so curious, not that my 3 beautiful boys don't keep me busy. I'm so thankful for them. They are so hilarious they keep me laughing all day. Today I walked into the toy room and Diesel was bent over mooning his baby brother. The look on his face was priceless. Eyes closed and the biggest smile i've ever seen. He was being sneaky because we've been cracking down on the boys mooning each other. He thought he was safe because Jordy cannot tell on him. I watched for a second until Diesel happened to look over at me standing beside him. His expression quickly changed from sheer joy to uh oh. I had to leave the room because i was laughing hystarically. I spent a minute gaining my composure and went in to talk to Deez about what happened, the minute I saw his face I burst out laughing again. We had a good laugh together all the while I continued trying to tell him what he had done was wrong. Even though I don't agree with what was happening, I welcomed the belly laugh with my precious son.
This afternoon nixon called me into his room when he was supposed to be napping because something was bothering him. He told me I had to smell his shirt, the words "mommy smell this" usually send me running, but I was curious what smell could be keeping him awake. I smelled his shirt and didn't smell anything, he made me smell it again and this just added to my curiosity. I asked him what he thought it smelled like and he said "croutons". So random :) My funny boys always keep me on my toes. I'm so very blessed to have my little comedians to spend my days with.
